It’s almost been a month since I wrote my last post.
Well, I think I made my sickness as a reason to not continue what I already do. Maybe what happened is my mind can’t bear the stress then the body start feeling sick, or maybe it’s because I’m really sick. I don’t know, but whatever it is it decrease my self-esteem again.
At this moment, I feel like I already gave up my dream, my goal, my happiness. Just a few months ago I still have the passion to pursue my dream to get a master degree program in Japan. Now, I’m feeling like meh. I know, it’s because I’m throwing away the good habits and the positive thoughts. After getting sick, I realize my mind is become more and more negative. I lose my energy, my spirit, my passion and my goal. As soon as getting better again, yes I’m feeling healthy again, I can start to focus on my mind. Really, having a healthy body means having a healthy mind. I rarely can focus if I’m in sick.
Now that I have regain my healthiness. I’m thinking about to start again my good habits. Developing good thoughts and growth mindset and start doing the hardwork again. Ok, maybe last time it only last for couple weeks, but this time I will try to maintain for a months. This is what I need to go back to Japan and gain my confidence in what I do. Let’s do the hard work and aim you goal. And let leave the result to God, because he will know what best for me.
Have a nice day, mate!